look
at the stars,
look how they shine
for
you.

Weeks before inilabas ni ilocos sur governor chavit singson, ang sabi ng kampo ni gma, ay babasag diumano sa kung anumang nilikha ng gloria gate cd. tampok dito ang usapan diumano ni dating pangulong erap estrada at ni dating afp chief joselin nazareno. pinag-uusapan diumano nila ang resulta ng halalan partikular sa mindano region. di malinaw kung ang tinutukoy duon na natalo ay ang namayapang fpj o si jinggoy estrada [senador na ngayon]. ngunit side dish lang daw yun. nakapaloob sa cd [na kumpletos rekados sa packaging] ang umano'y planong pagpatay kay fvr matapos na magtagumpay ang distabilasasyong magpapatalsik kay gma. bida rin dun si ping lacson na magiging katulong daw sa planong iyon.

ilang linggo na ang nakalipas, tila di kinagat ang x-tapes [erap cd] ni chavit. o talagang di kinagat ng publiko.

sa paglabas ng x-tapes na ito [diumano'y bahagi ng gloria cd na tinanggal ng oposisyon]. maraming tanong ang nabuo. sino itong gusto na naman bilugin ang ulo ng pinoy? sino itong gustong hamakin ang katalinuhan ng mamamayan?

kung papakinggang mabuti o babasahin ang transcription, malinaw na malinaw ang pagkakapareho ng sagot diumano ni erap sa mga kausap niya. pakinggan ang salitang

ok, ok sige.

dalawang beses niyang inulit ito. perehong pareho. bagsak ng boses. tono. kung susuriin pa, tila ipinatong ito.

hindi na iba ang cd ng ito sa inilabas ni pres sec toting bunye. hindi raw si gil garci yung kausap ni gma kundi si gary ruado. later on binawe niya ito, sa agsasabing di raw sha sigurado kung si gma nga iyon o kaboses lang.

wala na tayong narinig tungkol sa cd ni bunye. lahat ng infos tungkol dito ay ipit na ng malacanan. kesyo me on going na daw na impeachment proceedings. ayaw na nilang sagutin ang mga tanong tungkol dito.

malamang sa hinde ganito ren ang kalabasan ng cd ni chavit.

First time ko sa emergency room ng isang ospital. first time makapunta at first time na ako mismo yung dinala dun. isang "first" na di papangarapin ng kahit sino. ang mahal kaya maospital at masakit physically depende kung bakit ka andun.

i had a face mask nun kaya i can brutally hear my breathing. tahimik kase, yung lumang aircon lang ang maingay. maliban den sa paminsang minsang ingay ng mga doctor na nag-iinterview sa mga pasyente at kamag-anak ng pasyente [kung di na makausap yung pasyente].

ilang taon ka na?

umiinom?

naninigarilyo?

meron bang me diabetis sa inyo?

asthma?

isang lola yung nilagyan ng tube from her mouth down to her throat ewan kung saan papunta yun. masuka-suka yung lola. i damn pity her. sobrang nakakaawa.

pede bang wag na lang doc?

sa kabila, isang may katandaan ding babae ang kinkuhanan ng blood samples. alingaw-ngaw ang salitang "ARAY" sa buong ER. kung hinde pa yun manifestation kung gano sha nasasaktan ewan ko na.

iniisip ko pa ren kung baket ako nandun. ni hindi nga ako nahihilo. to think na kahit yung doctor eh nagsabi na mas malakas pa saten to [sa kausap nya]. kaya yun in-enjoy ko na lang yung stay ko dun. yun e kung enjoy ngang matatawag yun.

sa maliit na kwartong iyon isinugod at nawalan ng buhay si maningning miclat. marahil sa sulok sulok ng kwartong iyon naiwan pa ang mga hinagpis nung mga kaibigan ni maningning nung ibalita ng mga doctor na wala na sha.

sad.

8:30pm ako dinala dun. inakyat ako sa isang regular room for admission 1am na. wala nang emergency cases sa pagitan ng mga oras na iyon. isa sa inaabangan ko pa naman. dumadating na yung mga papalit sa staff na andun. masaya na yung mga pwede nang umuwe.

tumingin ako sa labas. nagsusulat sa logbook ang guard. sa mas labas pa, mahinang ambon ang nagbabadyang lumakas.

aftur two weeks nakalabas den ako [takas, siguro is the right word]. di ako makalabas [ayaw palabasin] dahel ako ay naconfine sa UDMC ng isang gabi at isang araw at isang hapon. ayaw ako palabasin [di ako makalabas] kase di dahel nanghihina ako [ i admit kelangan ko magpahinga] actulli wala ako nararamdaman maliban sa antukin ako mashadu [dahel siguro sa limang klase ng gamot na iniinom ko].

teka bago ang lahat pasalamat muna sa nakaalala saken, kay cocoy na nagdala saken ng isang piling na potasium, ke roy at ke armie na humabol, ke kapi na tumawag para kumustahin ako.

magpapasalamat pa bako ke roma e dat lang naman dalawin nyako. [joke shempre naman].

mga di ko nagawa noon,

wala ako sa cultural nite kina kiri.

wala ako sa art for oust sake sa up dil kung saan tumugtog ang banda ng aking kapatid [pinakita pa sila sa news ng channel2].

wala ako sa vigil sa up dil kung saan me concert ulet.

wala ako sa riles cultural nite ng km64 at ng lusong at ng musicians for peace.

wala ako sa SONA. argh.

namiss ko ang computer. namiss ko ang km64. namiss ko ang mob.

ako kaya namiss nila?

SA AMING GUSTONG PUMUNTA NG AYALA
PERO DI NAKAPUNTA

isang hapong tila lahat
ng tao sa metro
manila ay nasa ayala.

buong kainggitan
at kasugidan akong nag-aantabay
ng mga flashreports,
mga top of the hour news
at mga newsbreak at newsflash.

pilit dinadama ang init ng araw doon.
inaamoy ang inihaw na pusit doon.
kinauuhawan ang sago't gulaman doon.
kinikilala ang mga streamer at bandera,
mga chant at mukha doon,
sa rally kung saan wala ako.
wala ako doon.

dito sa aming bahay
inaangkin ko ang pinakamalakas na sigaw.
akin ang pinakamalakas na sigaw.

PEKENG PANGULO, PATALSIKIN SA PWESTO!

ewan ko ba kung baket anlakas ng appeal saken ng mga litrato o painting ng isang batang karga karga. eto ang definition ko ng cute.

mga eksena ng mga frends sa ayala rally last july 13.

dmonde directo ng pup student regent bilang isa sa mga speakers
at ang street lecture ni zach ng gsm manila .

si alex habang matamang nakikinig.

hay nako naiinggit na naman ako.

nagbebenta nga pala kame ng oust gma chapbook. special edition ito. murang mura lang sampung piso lang. kung gusto nyo reng mag-ambag ng mga tula, email nyo lang sa kilometer64@gmail.com.

po?


rally ngayon ng mga pro gma. ayoko na magsalita.

dapat nasa ayala ako ngayun.
kaso wala ako pamasahe.
hay.
buntung hininga na lang ako.

sa mga artista o manunulat na interesadong sumali sa alyansang ito padalhan nyo lang ako ng mensahe at contact numbers nyo. ayt?

Concept Paper for Alliance of Artists
July 9, 2005 Draft

“The filmmaker, like his fellow artists in different media, has now realized that the artist is also a public person. He does not work in isolation from society. Instead of working alone in his ivory tower he is a citizen of the slums, of the streets, of the battlefield if need be. The artist is always a participant. He tries to be true not only to his craft but also to himself. For is is the supreme duty of the artist to investigate the truth, no matter what forces attempt to hide it. And then to report it to the people, to confront them with it, like a whiplash that will cause wounds but will free the mind from the various fantasies and escapist fare that the Establishment pollutes our minds with.

To the best of our abilities, and even if we oftentimes fail, we want to do works that will hurt, films that will disturb, films that will not make you rest. For the times are really bad, and given times like these, it is a crime to rest. We can not rest, and we should not, while there’s a fellow Filipino starving in Negros, an Aquino or Galman crying for justice, a salvage victim lying in a mountain of garbage while a corrupt family rules the country with uncontrolled power and wealth. While it is the duty of the artist to work for what is true, good, and beautiful, first we have to expose and fight for what is wrong.

In these times when most of the media hide the truth from us, when most of what we get from the media are silly gossip and petty flesh and sensationalized crimes, we go to the streets to find out what’s happening. We listen to those artists who dare risk their lives and livelihoods, who reiterate once more the utmost duty of the artist --- that the artist is a committed person, that he will always take the side of any human being who is violated, abused, oppressed, dehumanized whatever his instrument ---the pen, the brush, or the camera. “
-Lino Brocka
Artist as Citizen


Critical periods in Philippine history are replete with artists who fulfilled their roles as citizens who challenged and fought an exploitative ruling order. These artists took the side of the violated, abused, oppressed and dehumanized and created works that exposed repressed realities and shattered bourgeois illusions. These artists effectively articulated and projected the vision of the people’s struggle in the theatre of social change. They are remembered as artists who coauthored and codirected mass movements, whether these be the scenes in political upheavals, refrains of people power uprisings or the powerful crescendos of revolutions.

The artists of this alliance will continue this legacy of commitment by engaging our cameras, our pens, our brushes, our guitars, our songs---our weapons and bullets in the raging discourse and brewing movement for the imminent removal of President Macapagal-Arroyo from office.

The alliance aims to facilitate the crystallization of a clear, informed and common stand and commitment to action among artists in the light of the current political situation in the country. The alliance will create venues for the study and discussion of the fundamental problems in society and support a sound answer to the present political crisis.

The alliance will be composed of artists and their supporters----individuals, organizations and institutions involved in a broad range of traditional and new art media. It will be fuelled primarily by artists from the grassroots, alternative and independent sectors. It will be open to student and youth cultural and arts organizations as well as art critics, educators, administrators and enthusiasts.

The artists will partcipate in street rallies, noise barrages and political vigils and transform non-traditional art venues like protest camps, picketlines, detention centers, urban poor and peasant communities into open places for music, theatre and dance performances, video installations, shadow plays, poetry readings, exhibits and film showings. Visual artists are enjoined to create sculptural effigies, puppets, grafitti, murals and other street art forms.

The artists believe that interacting with the most marginalized and disenfranchised of Filipinos will fulfill our responsibility of making our art accessible to a broader spectrum of society and in turn transform our consciousness and enrich our art. We believe that this will be an opportunity to open art to the scrutiny and appreciation of the people and expose us to the art and culture of the sector of peasants, workers, indigenous peoples and urban poor. This will be a challenge for us produce meaningful artworks forged by our unity with the struggle of the masses and deliver performances and productions evolved by precarious conditions and fluid scenarios. This will be humble contribution to the aspiration of ultimately liberating our people from cycle of injustice and suffering.

Basis of Unity

We recognize that the calls for the President’s ouster has long been driven by a popular movement against her militarist stance and skewed economic policies that has been detrimental to the welfare of the majority of Filipinos. This includes the President’s inaction and culpability in the politically motivated human rights violations which resulted in the killings of members and leaders of progressive people’s organizations and journalists throughout the nation; unequivocal support for the unjust US imperialist war policies; condonement of the haphazard branding as “Enemies of the State” a broad spectrum of groups including the National Union of Journalists of the Philippines (NUJP), Philippine Center for Investigative Journalism (PCIJ), Catholic Bishops Conference of the Philippines (CBCP), Philippine Educational Theatre Association (PETA), Free Legal Assistance Group (FLAG) and progressive-party list groups such as Bayan Muna, Gabriela, Anakpawis, Migrante, Anakbayan and other people’s organizations; implementation of the onerous fiscal reform agenda that included the expanded Value Added Tax law and approval of the Mining Act of 1995.

We support the escalating call for the resignation of President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo whose illegitimacy to rule which has been bolstered by the revelation of recorded conversations that presented evidence of her direct involvement in massive and systematic fraud during the May 2004 National Elections. We regard as insincere, superficial and deficient the belated admission and apology of Pres. Gloria Macapagal Arroyo to the Filipino people. Far from being a confession done in good faith, it was a calculated political move intended to cushion and circumvent the political consequences of her involvement in massive electoral fraud by appealing the “forgiving nature” of Filipinos. The President’s statement glossed over issues of bribery, graft and corruption, violation of the constitution that involved not only herself, but the First Gentleman Jose Miguel Arroyo, along with certain members and officials of the military, police, government and commission on elections. It was a contrived, self-serving, and convoluted script designed to further confuse the people and absolve the President from the grave affront that she committed against the Filipino people and the very foundation of the democratic system and justify her vontinued rule. It was not a mere “lapse in judgement” but a serious legal and political offense that should be investigated and tried by the people.

We will join the ranks of many other Filipinos who have been demanding the president to resign. We will be vigilant against all explicit and implicit attempts of the government to censure the Filipinos freedom of expression. We will take action and battle infringements on the right of the public to develop and raise their awareness regarding matters of national concern. We will defend the liberties that the people have struggled to regain during EDSA People Power 1 in 1986. The cases of graft and corruption, culpable violation of the constitution, betrayal of public trust and bribery allegedly committed by the President are not private issues but impeachable offenses that should by all means be transparent and given the full benefit of public scrutiny and criticism. We will exhaust all the possible constitutional means to seek truth and justice but will not hesitate to support and resort to the extraconstitutional process of an ouster when compelled to do so.

sign the petition puhleaseeee

pls sign the petition tas pakipalaganap na ren po...
GE NA..

http://www.petitiononline.com/pen333/petition.html

Isang malaking yun, patay nako last week. eh kaso sa kakulitan ko eto at nabuhay ako. muntik na daw akong magka-typhoid kaya binigyan ako ng gamot na papatay sa lahat ng bacteria na pede mabuhay sa katawan ko [bad bacteria, kase di ba me good bacteria] kahet meninggo kaya daw patayin.

in short mejo magaling nako. kahet paminsan minsan eh naiisep ko pa den na mamamatay nako.

uh.

shempre thank sa mga nag-alaga saken. una shempre sa aking ulirang ina. kahet na pinapagalitan nya ko pasimple, "yan kase puyat ng puyat, alam nyo naman na wala tayung pampadoktor."

isa pa sa aking gf na mabaet at.. kahet di nya napababa ang lagnat ko ok pa ren yung ginawa nya saken [parang ampanget pakinggan nun ah?] hinde i mean yung ginawa nya saken na nilagyan nya ng malamig na bimpo yung mga daliri ko tas pinunasan nya yung kamay ko tas yung mukha ko.

yun shempre sa kapatid ko na den na si bugoy. kahet me pananakit pa ren yung pagaalaga nya saken.

yun uuliten ko, di ko alam kung pano ko sila mapapasalamatan kaya siguro okey na ang i-blog ko sila. para just in case na me mag-search ng names nila, lalabas ang link na ito tas malalaman nila kung gaano ako ka-thankful sa mga taong ito.

by d way aking ina po ay si gilda deniola casia [me saket den sha ngayu]

ang aking gf naman na mabaet [pakiss nga] ay maria roma tarranza.

at ang aking kapatid ay si bugoy. tayu tayo ang buhok.

tara group hug.

sang linggo akong nilalagnat.
yun obyus naman ngayun na wala na.
kaya back to the present ang drama naten.
teka bat kaya ang bagal ng computer na ito?
di kaya me intilidyins na nakikibasa?