boykot nestle

san ang patay dito?

walang patay dito.

nasa isang pulong si ka fort. tagapangulo ng unyon ng nestle phils nang isang kotse ang tumigil sa harap ng piketline. nagtanong ang sakay nito sa lupamit na si ka fort.

umalis ang kotse matapos iyon.

ilang oras matapos. isang lalaki na aaligid aligid sa piketline ang nakita habang ito ay nagtetxt.

isang text message ang natanggap ni ka fort mula sa kanyang maybahay na nagsasabing kailangan madala sa ospital ang kanilang apo.

nagpaalam si ka fort sa mga kasama sa piketline at nagbilin.

kayo na ang bahala sa piketline mga kasama.

sakay ng kanyang motrosiklo umalis si ka fort. malapit na siya sa kanilang bahay nga barilin ng nakamotor ding kalalakihan.

tinamaan sa likod si ka fort. tagos sa kanyang puso. ang ikalawang bala ay puminsala sa kanyang apdo.

isinugod sa ospital si ka fort.

dead upon arrival.

wala na si ka fort. ang pen medina ng mga taga nestle.

pagaling ka heya hello baby.
so we can..

Because I love you. And if you come back with me to the hospital and fight for us. Fight for us, I will never leave you Victor. But you have to fight. And if you get well, when you get well, I'll be there with you. And if you die, I will hold your hand. I'll hold your hand and the last thing you will ever see will be me because I love you.
-julia roberts, dying young

standing in a waiting shed on my lonesome. watching raindrops form vertical lines from the sky. watch different generation of comuters alighting and boarding. watch jaywalkers crossing the street anywhere. a tshirt print caught my attention.

TRUE LOVE IS WAITING.

hah. ano to?

napasmile naman ako. sa mga oras na naguguluhan ka kung aales ka na ba o maghihintay pa ng konti nakakatuwa na biglang susulpot ang mga ganito.

hey, im waiting here for nearly 4 hours. at kung wala lang meet.. waiting pa ren..

true love?

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sa tequila joe's nakita ko si james blanco. wala lang.

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ansaket ng ulo ko last night. uh the whole day pala. consistent. tas ang ingay pa sa newsdesk. me nagpapiano ng somewhere in time, may nagtatawanan ng malakas, may naghahanap ng upuan, mag nagsosolisit, may nagkukumustahan. gusto kong gumawa ng sariling mundo sa mga oras na iyon.

at wala akong iimbitahing sumama.

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kala ko makakatulog nako kase sobrang pagod ako. wala. binantayan ko lang the whole night yung BOY BAWANG kase nagbabanta ng paglusob ang mga daga.

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di ko alam why they are afraid of my work of art. the latest, a paper mache head of a man.

mom: anu ba yang mga pinaggagawa mo?
brother: waaahh [ala monster]
mom: baka mapanagipan mo yan.
me: sus, wala kayong alam sa art.
mom: art art
me: puro kase kayo 168 [the shopping arcade somewhere in avenida]
mom: baket walang isang tenga?

brother ends up the heated debate by telling stories bout the prisoners of alcatras.

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waiting for sunday to come.
miss you nei.

mahirap makasanayan ang pansamantalang paghihiwalay

so many what to do's lined up for today. top of the list?

tire myself- to death.

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sm sta mesa bukas 3rd leg ng docufest ng i-witness.

1st screening
2pm

2nd screening
4pm

open forum after screenings.

what to watch out:
sa tuna't ginhawa ni sandra a.
buto' balat ni kara d.
the doctor of out of town ni raffy t.

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hindi ka ba titigil sa kakahabol sa pangarap ng iba para sa iyo?
-twisted halo

you make me a shadowboxer baby

it was a tiring day yesterday. from a h2o-less rally stint diretso ako sa cubao-x for the second to the last leg of the performance arts festivities. what makes more tiring is the fact that im not wid my aroma teraphy. she was probably sleeping, saliva-drooling in her bed or bloghopping-forgeting-to-email-me-again in front of the computer. hell, thats ok. she needs a rest. let her be. heya there anei baby. miss you mucho.

hell again. i was sitting solitary the whole night in cubao-x. watching performers do their stuffs. one artist, asked for an audience participation for his performance. he needs brave souls. yeah, as in brave. nagpapanggap na brave. i volunteered.

nasesence ko na eh, he keep on repeating that the performance has somenthing to do wid nudity. lumamig lalo yung hangin.

eto na. we formed a big circle. tas, instructions were given. TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRTS.

kaboom.

hesitant at first. but when i saw the gurls taking off theirs [yeah you heard it right- gurls] wag ka tatawa, i took off mine.

the mere thought that i am in the middle of about 75 pairs of eyes makes me shiever. maliban sa katotohanang sadyang napakalamig ng hangin. sobrang inaantay ko na mag-bow sha signalling na tapos na ang aking ordeal.

pero habang tunatagal, nagiging comportable na ako. ilan lang kameng nagpunta sa gitna. wala akong ni isang kakilala dun. camera flashes everywhere. kahet naman papano napatunayan ko sa sarili ko na me guts nga ako. brave nga siguro ako.

paminsan minsan.

CORNEA TRANSPLANT

makita mo nawa
ang aking di nakita.

tingnan mo ito
para sa akin.

"UGNAYAN '05"

4th Philippine International Performance Art Festival

(PIPAF)

UGNAYAN ’05 is a week-long performance art festival tobe held in several venues around Manila from SEPTEMBER17-22, 2005.

The 4th PIPAF was conceived, as an "event" forartists, to reconstruct through their performativeactions the "invisible in the visible". As a"venue-for-exchange", a "meeting point" between andamong national and international performance artists,“UGNAYAN’05” bolsters that urgent desire toreintegrate art and life and reaffirm and re-identifywith own cultural roots. As a "platform" for artists,it is to redefine contemporary, theoretical andconceptual art making processes - to reclaim lostvalues and denigrated methods and codes that re-createnew cultural systems.

- Yuan Mor'O Ocampo, Artistic Director, Ugnayan’05

PERFORMANCE & TIME-BASED ART PRACTITIONERS:

(please check final list of artists at Live Art Manila yahoogroups)

INTERNATIONAL:

Tony Schwensen (Australia).

AndreeWeschler (France).

Yoyoyo Gasmana (Indonesia).

SakikoYamaoka (Japan).

Akiyo Tsubakihara (Japan).

Lee Wen(Singapore)

& Kai Lam (Singapore).

Yeh Tzu-chi(Taiwan).

Chumpon Apisuk (Thailand).

Marilyn Arsem(USA),

Mr. Andre Stitt (Wales)

FILIPINO:

01) Adel Victoria,

02) Alan Rivera,

03)Arnel Ramiscal,

04) Bogie Tence Ruiz,

05) Boyet deMesa,

06) Bryan Lonop,

07) Buddy Ching,

08) DannySillada,

09) Donna Miranda,

10) Felimon Blanco,

11)Gary Chong,

12) Gio Respall,

13) Ian Lomongo,

14) JayCruz,

15) Jeho Bitancor,

16) Jethro Jocson,

17)Jevijoe Vitug,

18) John Crisostomo,

19) Judy FreyaSibayan,

20) Kaye O’Yek Daya,

21) Lorina Javier,

22)Mannet Villariba,

23) Marge Francia,

24) MarlonMagbanua,

25) Mervin Espina,

26) Mideo Cruz,

27) MitchGarcia,

28) Myra Beltran,

29) Neo Angono Collective,

30) Noel Pama, Sr.,

31) Patrick Chong,

32) PaulMorales,

33) PLM Hiyas Ng Maynilad,

34) Raul Alcoseba,

35) Rommel Espinosa,

36) Ronaldo Ruiz,

37) TezaCornes,

38) Vim Nadera

39) Walter Ladera,

40) WawiNavarroza,

41) Wire Tuazon,

42) WDA-Phils.CN,

43) YuanMor’O Ocampo

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SEPTEMBER

17 - Lumiere Gallery, Makati / 4-7PM (Podium Floor,Locsin Bldg., Ayala Ave. cor. Makati Ave.,Makati City)

18 - Kanlungan ng Sining, Rizal Park / 5PM

19 - Dance Forum Space, QC / 6PM

20 - Ateneo De Manila University / 8:30AM-6PM (ArtForum & Live Art)

21 - Kuquada Gallery, Marikina Shoe Expo / 5PM

22 - Rajah Sulayman Plaza, Malate, Manila / 6PM (infront of Aristocrat, Roxas Blvd. Malate)

"A man's own self is his friend. A man's own self is his foe."
- Bhagavad Gita

airplanes mistaken for stars

di ako makapaniwala, i've just puffed a cigar kanina. at take note HOPE pa.

and my lola she told me, she told me not to smoke- hope.
-marcus adoro,

oo nga, kase never naman talaga ako naninigarilyo. tas di ako marunong magsindi, i dont even know how to place it in my mouth.

ganito kase yun, on my way home, pagkahatid kay heya hello hey baby ko, nadaanan ko ang isang disabled na guy na nakaupo sa sidewalk. tas all of a sudden, tinawag nya ako. iniisep ko na baka magpapatulong ng kung ano, lapit naman ako.

tas paglapit ko sabe niya bili ko daw sha ng hope. dalawa. sabay abot ng 3 peso coins. sindihan ko na daw. shempre sabe ko, ser di ako naninigarilyo. sabe niya pausap ko daw sa tindera/tindero.

so go ako sa pinakamalapit na sari sari store.

may tinda po kayong hope? meron. magkano? 1.50 isa. dalawa nga po.

abot ng dalawang stick. manang marunong po kayong magsindi? di po kase ako naninigarilyo. pabili lang po ito.

hindi rin daw sha marunong, so nagmagaling nako. eto na naman ako si mr know it all. simple lang naman tu eh.
lagay sa labi, sindihan ng lighter, hithit a little then walahhh, me sindi na ang kanina eh inutil na yosi.

yun balik ako sa kanya. abot ng dalawang stick.

at eto na. nawindang ako sa sinabi nya.

salamat ah. mag-iingat ka sa pupuntahan mo.

ewan, paranoid lang siguro ako.

tara kanta na lang tayu.

ang ganda ng mtv nito. one of the greatest ive seen.

from smashing pumpkins.

tonight tonight.

Time is never time at all You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth And our lives are forever changed We will never be the same The more you change the less you feel Believe, believe in me, believe Believe that life can change That you’re not stuck in vain We’re not the same, we’re different tonight Tonight, so bright Tonight And you know you’re never sure But you’re sure you could be right If you held yourself up to the light And the embers never fade in your city by the lake The place where you were born Believe, believe in me, believe Believe in the resolute urgency of now And if you believe there’s not a chance tonight Tonight, so bright Tonight We’ll crucify the insincere tonight We’ll make things right, we’ll feel it all tonight We’ll find a way to offer up the night tonight The indescribable moments of your life tonight The impossible is possible tonight Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight.

At sumubsob ako sa balikat mo at umiyak ng malakas. umiyak ng malakas na malakas. sobrang lakas at di mo na ako nakilala. sabi mo, di ka naman umiiyak ah? di ba? sabi ko, tange imiiyak din ako. ano ako bato? matatawa ka sana pero nakita mong may namumuo na namang luha sa kanang mata ko kaya ngumiti ka na lang at hinaplos mo ang aking batok. napaiyak na ako nang tuluyan. sabi mo tama na tama na- naiiyak ka na din. pero di ako tatahan at humahagulgol na ako ngayon. di mo na rin mapipigil ang sarili mo at iiyak ka na din. paluha-luha hanggang sa humagulgol ka na rin at ang buong kwarto ay mapupuno ng mga iyak. malalakas na iyak.

biglang may kakatok.

bigla tayong maghihiwalay ng yakap. magpupunas ka ng mata. haharap sa salamin at magsusuklay. ako naman ay magtatawag ng pusa sa bintana. magpapatuloy ang mga katok at bubuksan mo ang pinto. ang 5year old na anak ng kapitbahay ang makikita mong nakatayo. itatanong nya kung sino daw ang namatay. ngingiti ka kakargahin mo siya. isasara ang pinto. uupo at kakandungin mo siya. sasabihin ko sayo, kwentuhan mo siya tungkol sa kinuwento ko sayo dati tungkol sa dragon na nag-alay ng buhay para sa kaibigan niyang tao. kinilala ng mga diyos ang ginawang ito ng dragon kaya upang lagi siyang makita ng mga taong natulungan niya, ginawa siyang star. grupo ng mga stars.

kilala na siya ngayon bilang constellation draco.

sisilip ang bata sa bintana at titingin sa malawak na langit na animo'y binibilang ang mga stars. sasabihin ko sa kanya na, tulad ng dragon, ang lahat ng namamatay ay nagiging star. likas kasing malilimutin ang mga tao kaya naisip ng mga diyos na laging ipakita ang mga pumanaw kahit tuwing gabi lang sa pamamagitan ng mga star. sa gayon pwede nang kausapin ang mga pumanaw sa pamamagitan ng mga ito.

akala natin di nakikinig ang bata dahil tutok ang atensyon nya sa mga stars pero bigla siyang magsasalita,

asan kaya diyan ang tatay ko?

sasagot ako na tila kilala ang mga stars. sasabihin ko na hanapin nya ang pinakamaliwanag na star na kikislap. ililibot ng bata ang tingin at sesentro sa bandang kaliwa ng buwan. animo'y nakita ang amang kakadating lang galing sa opisina, naghuhubad ng polo, nagpapalit ng sapatos sisigaw ito ng- tatay!

titingin ako sa iyo. umiiyak ka pa rin. oo nga pala wala ka na nga rin palang tatay. tulad ko wala na rin akong tatay. lahat pala tayo dito walang tatay.

kaya kinuha ko ang kamay mo at hinila palapit sa bintana. sabay tayong tumingala at naghanap ng para sa atin ay pinakamaliwanag na star.

sobrang tired kahapon.
masaya naman. sobra.

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isang text message ang natanggap ko last last night from a poet friend, days after i-critic nya yung poem ko.

eto yung mssg:

getz ko ang honesty mo. pero insincere ang mundo. kung paano ka magiging masaya sa isang insincere na mundo, yun ang challenge.

wag nyo tanungin kung nagreply ako.

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hindi ko alam kung bat hanggang ngayon hinahanap ko pa ren ang meron.

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isang tulang naisulat ko habang nakikinig ng cd ni cynthia a.

ito ang mga saglit na

lubha kong iniibig

maging hangin.

upang sa kagyat

ikaw'y yakapin.

mahigpit.

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speaking of hyacynta. naipost na ni hey baby roma to sa blog nya SHEMPRE post ko den. peborit daw nya tu eh kaya peborit ko na den. idol ko yun eh

Why why do you worry? We are not born nor do we die What is happening happens for the best What will happen happens for the best We have come empty handed We will go empty handed What have you lost that you are weeping? What have you found that you have lost? What have you built that has been broken? You have not anything What you have got you got from here What was given you was given here What you took you took from here What you gave you gave unto here We have come empty handed We will go empty hande

-EMPTYHANDED, derived from Bhagavad-Gita

oust gma

STATEMENT OF UNITY

BUKLURAN PARA SA KATOTOHANAN

We come from all walks of life, from different political, cultural, and economic persuasions, different points of view. But in diversity, we find a cause for unity. That cause for unity is our common objective to secure the truth.

We all seek the truth.

We want the truth to come out. And yet every means for seeking the truth has been frustrated; every avenue for arriving at the truth has been blocked; and every opportunity to find the truth is being closed.Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo's response to our call for the truth has been to suppress evidence, hide her accomplices, engage in a grand cover-up, sow fear, foment distrust and use every instrument at her disposal to encourage division among our people.

We will not be divided in these critical times.We say with one voice, Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo must go. For the good of the country, she must go. For the sake of our nation's future, she must go. For the preservation of hope as a motive force in our national life, she must go.We are united by the belief that this crisis must be resolved in a manner that is peaceful and democratic.

Without the truth, there cannot be peace; without the truth, there is no genuine democracy.
The truth must set our nation free.

Unite for the truth.

Demand the truth.

Defend the truth.


Action for Economic Reforms
AKBAYAN
Citizen's Action Party
Ateneo Concerned Faculty and Youth
Bangon Pilipinas
Bagong Alyansang Makabayan (BAYAN)
Be Not Afraid
Black & White Movement
Citizens for TRUTH (Transparency, Responsibility, Unity, Trust, Hope)
Citizens for Truth, Resignation, Impeachment, or Ouster (C4T)
Coalition for National SolidarityCounsels for the Defense of Civil Liberties (CODAL)
De La Salle
FPJP Movement
Freedom from Debt Coalition (FDC)
Interfaith Movement for Truth, Justice and Genuine Change (IFM)
Kilusan ng Makabansang Ekonomiya (KME)
Laban ng Masa
Moro National Liberation Front (MNLF)
People's Assembly for Genuine Alternatives to Social Apathy (PAG-ASA)
Pwersa ng Masang Pilipino (PMP)
Reporma
Union of Muslims for Morality and Truth (UMMAT)
United Opposition (UNO)
Unity for Truth and Justice
UP AWAREUP
Diliman Student Council (UPD USC)
White Ribbon Movement
Women March
Youth DARE
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Please repost in your own blogs. Many thanks.

sleep is overrated. you'll get all that you need the day you die. stop counting sheeps. they're dead.

anesthesia

again im alone.
stiving in the darkness
of solitude,
frustrated on lifes' cruelty
on me.
yet,
maybe it's my fault.
it is me to blame,
i deserve to suffer.
punishment is indelible
and im getting used to pain.
loving ang enjoying
every bit ang part of it.

im immune to anguish.

i love pain.

Wilfrid Hernandez,

a.k.a. Wolfmann,

succumbed to aneurysm

last last Sunday and

will

be

sorely

missed.

and you loved my dark

SWEET SORROW

touch me now, honey.
kiss me quick, baby.

it'll be o'r
the sooner than we think.

for i'll die on a twentyeight
and my glass will be empty.
there will be eternity.
promise no grief.
i'll never leave.
never far away.
i promise.

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2nd FLOOR

mababasag ang luha
ng kandila
tuwing papatak
sa ikatlong baitang
ng hagdan.

pumikit ka't dumalangin
kaluluwa niya sa kaharian
ng diyos,
nawa'y tanggapin.

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40 DAYS

talk to me as if you see me.
hug me as if you can feel my body.

ill be everywhere-
the keys on your computer.
a taxi driver.
the water coming from the head of the shower.
a star shining bright.
a book on your shelf.

talk to me as if you can see me.
hug me as if you can feel my body.

ako pag naglalakad parang batang naguumpisa pa lang mapagbiskleta- tingin sa malayo balansihen ang sarili, lalo na pag gabi

i





am






empty.



ganito ako -------> rustum










ganito ang m u n d o.

What's in a book?
pantasya bangungot mithi ng manunulat.

Number of books on the shelves:
uhm nanghihiram lang ako eh. at halos lahat dun di aken.

Those that I own or bought:
nakabili ako date sa popular bookstore ng tig lilimampisong mga libro. astig yung mga titles.

Last few books that I bought:
di ako ang bumile nun ang aking everdearest nurse. anu ba title nun?
POLITIK?

Books that I'm reading now:
kung maaari ni allan popa [na di ko pa nasosoli]

Last few books read:
nagbabasa ako ng mga lumang readers digest ngayun. 1995 pa ata yung mga yun.

ang ita-tag ko....
roma shempre

daning to the tune of baby i love your way

its been fourteen moons.

yeah.

great.

really.

pramis.

di nga.